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Post by Phil on Jul 23, 2015 21:08:52 GMT -5
From last night. Update to follow.
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Post by Phil on Jul 23, 2015 21:53:03 GMT -5
From today, like a few hours ago. My call with Andii went well except we both sat there feeling sad that we had to vote out someone we liked and really connected with. Like, I did connect with Lexi in this game but also I have to think. There are so many other people in this game that I have connected with. It's not even about being against Alexis. Or being with Helena. Or being with Mac. It's about all my other relationships in this game that I've tried to foster. It sucks that this one is ending, but I also just think this is the best move for me. If I am wrong, then I guess I will eat shit. I feel bad because I'm sure Alexis is being genuine. I just struggle so much when two sides want my loyalty. It really sucks. Andii and I struggled about whether or not we were gonna tell Alexis or not. I ... sorta told her. I just said I don't want a tie. Which is true. I also don't want to be fought after anymore. Ew I'm feeling so emo and whiny, I need to stop. God it will be so dumpid if I am feeling conflicted about everything and then I get blindsided. smilesmile. frownfrown. please god no.
*I think I made a mistake in my video. I think near the end I said "I'm pretty sure Lexi is voting for Helena, I think she is. I hope she's not lying." Or something like that. I'm pretty sure I meant I think Lexi is voting for Alexis.
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Post by Phil on Jul 23, 2015 22:38:09 GMT -5
Phil: also lol for me, this episode is like the evolution of your name Phil: i stopped calling you beta lexi, and started calling you purple lexi. and now i can just call you lexi. lexi: hahahahahahah im glad!!! Phil: i will miss beta lexi tho not gonna lie lexi: no me2. lexi: like im really sad if we had to vote her oout lexi: if I could change my vote I probably would Phil: beta lexi? lexi: yeah Phil: beta lexi will never be forgotten. lexi: have you already voted? Phil: yes lexi: =[[[ lexi: I do feel super bad Phil Varela: i do too This poked my heart. This is crazy. Does purple Lexi actually want to change her vote last minute? I don't want to entertain the idea and it makes me feel even worse for not wanting to consider it. Like I will die if its a tie, HAH.
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Post by Phil on Jul 24, 2015 0:53:04 GMT -5
LOL Of course right after Alexis is voted out, MAC starts shit in the chat. Like hardcore. This shit is the Real Housewives of Botswana, I'm telling you.
RIGHT away people go on the attack and people go on the defense. Ruben is SCREAMING at Mac. Mac is SCREAMING at Ruben, an DJ is chiming in too, and people's names are being flung around. Even me and Helena had our names flung around by Mac and we're like UM EXCUSE ME WHAT. We didn't know what you were doing with saving Mandy until you did it. Please to not instruct anyone to "ask Phil or Helena". Like, nooooo please.
Anyway, Mac's outburst didn't sit well with helena, and Helena FINALLY showed that she's not happy with the way Mac and DJ act sometimes. I totally agree with her and she confided in me, which is really nice. I think we are growing closer! I've always been paranoid about Helena actually being Dj and Macs third. Because Helena has always been so chill about what they do n shit. but this time Helena was legit not happy and both Helena and I had to have a talk with Mac and basically tell him to calm down sometimes.
Mac CAN be reasoned with sometimes. He needs to be kept in check. Like sometimes Alex tries to keep Mac in check but then Mac goes off on Alex, which is why I always thought Mac hated Alex but I guess that's not true at all LOL> whatever i'm dumb. DJ kinda feeds Mac and they both go off. So, yeah its like Ruben and Brandon against Mac n DJ n shit, and it sucks because Me, Alex, and Helena are all caught up in this SHIT and we don't have idols.
SO I am WORKING hardcore on building and maintaining relationships with some of the people who are in the no idol group. I am making sure I am good with Andii and Lexi. I legit like them both. I really really get along with them tbh, and I hoooooope that can translate into sharing information and keeping eachother safe. I legit only just met Lexi, but tbh she's really chill and tbh i think she likes me as well. It'll be interesting to see how people slide back into their former alliances. I'm already being herded back by Mac and DJ, and tbh I dont give a fuck. Its fine. its whatever. but i am my own person and i need to branch out.
I will need to mend things with Ruben at some point. He's close with Taylor and he's gotta be close with Brandon now. Andii is close with Brandon I think (she said he told her what his reward was). Andii was very close to revealing his reward to me, but held back. Its fine! But its definitely something he can use against someone. And its not crazy. And I'm not in danger of suffering from it, I don't think. As long as I keep my relationship up with Andii, I can continue to try to avoid the wrath of the "other side".
I only talked to Taylor breifly when Alexis was trying to figure out if she was being voted out. I avoided talking to Taylor too much. He wanted to know if I voted and I simply didn't want to say. I'll talk to him at another time. Apparently Banks really likes Taylor, so that's interesting. Something to both watch out for and take advantage of, I think.
UGH Ruben tried to call me like 30 minutes before the vote was due because Alexis wanted me and Helena to switch our votes and tie it up. WHen we didnt, and Alexis left, all hell broke loose and then Ruben was like "WE WERE COMING AFTER HELENA". LOL LOL LOL> ok..umm...i wasn't really aware of that. I don't think we discussed who we were voting because we wanted to win. Also fuck the other tribe for throwing to "protect Brandon and Andii". Our tribe was on top of that protection. Even though ironically Helena would have caused us to lose had the other tribe not thrown LOOOOL. whatever.
Anyway, the night was just crazy. But OMG merge. OMG yes. YES. I have to set goals. Do it do it do it. Slowly get to know Taylor. Slowly build back that social relationship with Brandon. Rebuild relationship with Ruben. Don't piss off Mac and DJ. Keep tabs on Banks. Keep close with Andii. And Lexi. And Helena. Figure out what the fuck Mandy is doing in this game. Be a star. Goals, people. Goals.
Also, I want to try really hard at this IC. I really really really want it. I THINK I CAN DO IT. If I put my mind to it, I can create a really nice thing. I consider myself to be ok at photoshop and I'm pretty creative. I usually score well when I contribute to tribal challenges of this nature. I didnt give a fuck about the mask challenge, but this is different. GO ME.
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Post by Phil on Jul 24, 2015 19:25:33 GMT -5
Also omg I miss our old circular icons. Mostly cuz y'all chose a good pic of me and now I have the crazy eyes.
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Post by Phil on Jul 24, 2015 23:42:23 GMT -5
Jesus fuck I am literally so irrelevant. I just checked the Facebook page and everyone got a post with their new pics except for me. AND i'm last in that new poll.
RIP me, I guess. Or I'm so irrelevant people actually forget to vote for me.
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Post by Phil on Jul 28, 2015 23:41:50 GMT -5
Catching up on old confessionals that I recorded over the past few days. The wind blew but doesn't obscure anything important.
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Post by Phil on Jul 29, 2015 0:06:31 GMT -5
Last bit of Episode 7!
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